It did not take long after those experiences for me to begin searching for an explanation of what was happening. I was not looking for people who would believe me or confirm that what I was seeing was real. I was looking for genuine understanding—an explanation of what was happening and why it was happening.

I began my search online almost immediately, and I was surprised to discover that the questions I had been asking myself were not new. There were individuals, researchers, and entire institutions that had devoted years of work to studying these phenomena and attempting to understand them.

I did not rely on a single source during my research journey. I read books, explored various websites, watched documentaries, and followed researchers whose names were associated with the field. I felt a strong desire to understand everything I could, which is why I never limited myself to one book, one opinion, or one school of thought.

To this day, I still remember the first book that influenced me, and I also remember a passage from another book that remained with me over the years: if a person perceives something and wishes to help others, that desire should not be connected to any worldly gain or personal benefit.

Among the individuals who captured my attention early on were Ingo Swann and Hella Hammid. My interest went beyond simply reading their work; I wanted to understand their experiences, their journeys, and the ways in which they approached these phenomena. I particularly remember that Hella Hammid sparked my curiosity to such an extent that I began researching her life and background in greater depth.

Yet the most important discovery was not the existence of books or researchers. It was the feeling that accompanied that discovery. For the first time, I realized that these were not my questions alone. There were people in different parts of the world thinking about the same questions and searching for similar answers.

With every new source I encountered, the picture became broader and more complex. Rather than reducing the number of questions, each new insight seemed to generate even more, which only strengthened my desire to continue researching and exploring.

It felt as though I had found an intellectual tribe after years of asking questions on my own.

During that period, my focus was on understanding rather than reaching definitive conclusions. What I was searching for was explanation and understanding. I wanted to know how these experiences occurred, why they happened at some times and not at others, whether they could be developed or controlled, and what factors might influence them.

From the very beginning, my primary focus was specifically on remote viewing, because the apparent perception of events or information before they occurred was what had led me into this field in the first place.

As my reading expanded, I began to realize that the subject extended far beyond individual experiences or personal stories. Before me was a long history of studies, experiments, and systematic efforts aimed at understanding and exploring these phenomena.

This was one of the main reasons I came to regard it as a legitimate subject worthy of serious research rather than merely an intriguing phenomenon.

At that stage, I no longer felt that I was asking these questions alone. Instead, I felt that I had become part of a much larger conversation—one that had begun many years before I arrived and continues to this day.

My interest gradually shifted from focusing on what others had already discovered to what remained undiscovered.